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I’m slowly getting closure…I got over you.

29/06/2010

My last few posts have dealt with my responses to the Frisky’s 30-Day Breakup Guide. It was a great way to get things going again, to find closure and celebrate myself instead of mourning what’s past.

Now, though, I’m finished.

There are a couple of reasons I’m not going to go through the rest of the guide. First and simplest, the tasks don’t appeal to me anymore. Signing up for a class, fixing something myself? Done, and before I even thought I’d look twice at a list like this. Calling my dad? Same goes. I refuse to picture my life 25 years from now, because doing that is part of what got me in this mess in the first place. I already changed my hair, and I’ll cook a meal when I’m damned good and ready to.

More importantly, I’m over it. Things have happened that just reinforce what a bad position I was in before and underscore how much better off I am now that I’m out of the cycle. I look at how things were and all I do is shake my head — the good things can’t outweigh the bad, and I can’t even say that I like the person I was with (let alone the person I was). I don’t know him, don’t recognize him — I shared my life and my heart with a stranger, something I never thought I would actually do.

So forget the calendar, forget recovery. I had one of those snap epiphanies, and I’m going with it. I’m not devoting any more energy to this breakup, because I realize like I didn’t before that it really isn’t worth it.

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